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Moon 7 - Passing
The light travels through my body and bones, the bones of all the things I’ve ever been and will ever become: 6 miles long, 6 miles deep and 6 miles wide. The bird flies above me with silk scarf in beak, constant and steady.
I’m getting used to the light as I begin to realise I’m past the halfway mark. This new moon places me back into the trajectory. The couple of cycles ahead are unsteady, not unstable, there’s plenty of gravity here - I just never quite feel settled, always a tad flighty (even though I’m not flying). Maybe this time I might be able to settle myself more. I’m really not sure how though…
I decide to begin by writing a letter to my future self on the 12th Moon:
Dear self of the 12th Moon,
I’m writing to you from the brightness. Something has become clear to me: the unease I feel during this moon and the ones to come is from fear of shaping the light imperfectly into the world.
I wait for certainty, for the work to arrive fully formed, to feel ready enough, skilled enough, clear enough. But creation doesn’t move that way.
So I am making a promise here, at the beginning of this cycle.
I will create. Over these coming moons, I’ll loosen my grip on control.
Tell me:
What did you make?
What surprised you?
What became possible once you stopped demanding perfection before beginning?
Did you trust your instincts more?
Did you allow yourself to be seen?
I hope you filled pages.
I hope you followed the strange ideas.
I hope you made things that failed and things that quietly glowed.
With tenderness and love,
Me, (at the start of moon 7cycle).